1. |
Hand Me Down
02:23
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2. |
Yulp
02:09
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blood curdling
white knuckling
nerve racking
nerve endings
strained and volatile
blood pumping
head is a hospital
trauma becomes anatomical
pins and needles
empty handed
loss or surroundings
heart pounding
bellowing bursting
tossing turning
dormant seeds
compost burning
naked and exposed
I am not a home
naked and exposed
I am not a home
genetic disturbance
got no release and I’m nervous
short circuit I am the beast I’m a currant
a transitory observance quantum locked Into service
life is a serpent a portrait of grief power surges
life is a surgeon
my bed at night feels like dante’s inferno
I’m a commercial of rehearsals of role reversals
straight line moving in circles
insides are bullfighting
done hiding
teeth grinding
done trying
smiling while I’m crying
self denying
self vilifying
backbiting
realigning
got the heart of a lion
embrace my defiance
new face that I’m trying
I’m alphabetizing my failures and I forgot….
I got the eyes of a stranger
teeth marks in my head i'm in danger
oppressed by my own worst behavior
let the devil in my bed
self traitor hate tailored to my flesh
This my eternal return
rug burns curses unlearned
whole life been a u-turn
upside down bell curve rebirth
insides are bullfighting
done hiding
teeth grinding
done trying
smiling while I’m crying
self denying
self vilifying
backbiting
realigning
got the heart of a lion
embrace my defiance
new face that I’m trying
I’m alphabetizing my failures
and I forgot F
blood curdling
white knuckling
nerve racking
nerve endings
strained and volatile
blood pumping
head is a hospital
trauma becomes anatomical
pins and needles
empty handed
loss or surroundings
heart pounding
bellowing bursting
tossing turning
dormant seeds
compost burning
naked and exposed
I am not a home
naked and exposed
I am not a home
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3. |
Finish Lines
02:46
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anger my forcefield
human my shield
despair my forcefield
human my shield
secret language I wield
secret anguish I feel
how do I heal
broken my seal
society of strangers
privacy endangered
angels are wagered
wounded exchanges
body a riddle riddled with vigils and symbols
and whittled to signals and impulse
let the windows blow echoes through my skull
thousands of wounds in me they weep pure gold
I've seen how things that seek their way find void instead
i’m a product of your observation
I’m the product of your observation
I’m the product of your observation
death isn’t real
heal what I could be
i don’t know I fucking kid around
gender my pantomime shame is a victimless crime
my awkward design
death isn’t real
heal what I could be
I don’t know I fucking kid around
gender my pantomime shame is a victimless crime
my awkward design
I'm the product of your observation
button mashing dissociation
so patiently waiting for placement
I’ve been so many different parts of the same equation
I’ve waded thru sludge
taste buds taste blood on my paystubs
I can feel my guts paint there windows shut
my skin feels like bugs
laughing at the parts of me that are gone
the old me is telling me to get off my lawn
what parts does that belong
singing the words to the wrong song
trying to predict my own death reading my own palm
I am my own mom
I am my own parent
I am so transparent
packing my lunch
the lines have been drawn
I must confront the hunt
i’m on the hunt for real
my flesh is a parody
testing heresy
I will not lock my polarities
frothing for familiarity
temporarily I yearn
for my sincerity I burn
mind racing heart racing no finish lines
mind racing heart racing no finish line
mind racing heart racing no finish lines
death isn’t real
heal what I could be
I don’t know I fucking kid around
gender my pantomime
shame is a victimless crime
my awkward design
death isn’t real
heal what I could be
i don’t know I fucking kid around
gender my pantomime
shame is a victimless crime
my awkward design
pitfalls enshrined in others eyes
take death for a joyride
which parts of me are petrified
open wide don't know what u might find
empty child just trying to hide
Is living just beating a dead horse
Is giving just part of the blood sport
Is living just killing a dead horse
Is loving part of the blood sport
OH I DON’T KNOW
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4. |
Beams ༼ つ ╹ ╹ ༽つ
03:45
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teeth
falling out my
mouth…..
nowhere but up
my trust drains my blood with wanderlust
where is us?
inside me I make the cut
find you in my gut
my self love is numb
I can feel it on my tongue
I can turn it into words
it’s just fire in my lung
i’m addicted to the burn
i just need to learn to trust
t rust trust trust
finding poetry in grime
two black holes for eyes
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
let sleeping dogs lie
writhing in time
finding poetry in grime
let sleeping dogs lie
writhing in time
finding poetry in grime
two black holes for eyes
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
let sleeping dogs lie
let sleeping dogs lie
let sleeping dogs lie
let sleeping dogs die
let sleeping dogs lie
finding poetry in grime
two black holes for eyes
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love
where the milk of human kindness runs dry
finding love
where the milk of human kindness runs dry
let sleeping dogs lie
I wish I could be haunted by your ghost
I wish I could be haunted by your ghost but I’m haunted by memories
and when there gone that's when I miss you the most
I wish I could be haunted by your ghost but I’m haunted by memories
and when there gone that's when I miss you the most
I wish I could be haunted by your ghost
but I’m haunted by memories
and when there gone that's when I miss you the most
talk to myself in baby talk relearning how to walk marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
hate me just the way you are
talk to myself in baby talk relearning how to walk marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
hate me just the way you are
talk to myself in baby talk relearning how to walk marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
teeth falling out my mouth
set myself on fire just so you can put me out
living with this doubt drinking from this drought
making deals Like i’m faust
take a different route
I just want to make you proud
teeth falling out my mouth
set myself on fire Just so you can put me out
living with this doubt
drinking from this drought
making deals like i’m faust
take a different route
I just want to make you proud
talk to myself in baby talk
relearning how to walk
marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
hate me just the way you are
talk to myself in baby talk
relearning how to walk
marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
hate me just the way you are
talk to myself in baby talk
relearning how to walk
marinating in this loss
tied up in knots I’m still lost
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5. |
Ozymandias ✧
02:50
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stayed up all night looking at all the animals that have gone extinct
bodies buried and left behind
doom scrolling through food chain shortages and doomsday plans
til my body sinks and I lose my mind
obsessively researching near death experiences and ways to elongate the human lifespan I’m running out of time
It feels like everything is happening all at once and I’m slowly getting shrink wrapped and I’m stuck waiting in line
to buy something I’m not sure that I want
and I want to be one with everything
thing don’t shine the way they used to
things don’t shine the way they used to
maybe I need religion
or admission or to be forgiven or to forgive
maybe I need a head on collision
with my past selves and seatbelts
let it all melt together in the crash
sleepwalking who have I haunted
how much have I already forgotten
I am exhausted I am a gauntlet of spells
what desires need to be shelved
paranoia like piranhas
afraid of my face afraid of my karma
i call up my old number and i cry to the dial tone
I wake up in cold sweats
and talk to god whenever i’m alone
who was the first person to ask for permission
and who was the first person to say no
listen to the silence
it turns valleys into echoes
bends forrest and
takes the water from the mouths of the dead
conversations feel like death threats
cradled in a place where all time converges
pushing the rocks of infinity
the gears of time pulverizing bodies into dust
tangled in highways
forgotten like street names
memories growing pains
rose tinted male gaze
a bed of nails a sea of beige
a cave of yesterday’s
i am the numbness buried
deep beneath your family tree
a soothing place between wake and sleep
listen to the silence
it turns valleys into echoes
bends forrest and takes the water
from the mouths of the dead
conversations feel like death threats
cradled in a place where all time converges
pushing the rocks of infinity
the gears of time pulverizing bodies into dust
tangled in highways
forgotten like street names
memories growing pains
rose tinted male gaze
a bed of nails a sea of beige
a cave of yesterday’s
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6. |
Lonesome Dove 🕊️
01:00
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your too much
but are you enough?
your too much
but are you enough?
are you worthy of love?
is love worthy of us?
your too much
but are you enough?
your too much
but are you enough?
your too much
but are you enough?
are you enough?
are you enough?
your too much
but are you enough?
your too much
but are you enough?
are you enough are you enough?
i’m a lonesome dove
wear my skin like a medical glove
i’m a lonesome dove
wear my skin like a medica glove
i’m a lonesome dove
wear my skin like a medica glove
i’m a lonesome dove
wear my skin like a medical glove
the past petrified in my body
the past petrified in my body
the past petrified in my body
the past petrified in my body
my boooodyyyy my bodddyyyy
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7. |
Woman Without A Country
02:49
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caked on anmnesia
caked on synesthesia
the organ grinder's monkey
survivor of the money
woman without a country
caked on amnesia
caked on synesthesia
the organ grinder's monkey
survivor of the money
woman without a country
the cries are ignored
dragonflies my regalia
drown me in in paraphernalia
mirror double edged sword
gouge me until see clearer
breath drawing nearer
gender funhouse mirror
my social dysplasia
prey upon my divination
flesh coat of pain
body leaching out the frame
coursing through my veins
burning in water drowning in flames
circling the drain flesh coat of pain
i will not die in vain with a flesh coat of pain
my insides are hate crimes
my outsides are straight lines
def to the grapevine confined by my cloud 9
i spit at father time all of my
past lives i’m mourning my past lives as they try and swallow me
blood viscosity love animosity
the dichotomy of dishonesty
egregore lobotomy
walking swarm of penal colonies
spit on the face of father time
my existence is a hate crime
can't walk in a straight line
the cries are ignored
dragonflies my regalia
drown me in in paraphernalia
mirror double edged sword
gouge me until I see clearer
breath drawing nearer
gender funhouse mirror
my social dysplasia
prey upon my divination
the cries are ignored
dragonflies my regalia
drown me in in paraphernalia
mirror double edged sword
gouge me until i see clearer
breath drawing nearer
gender funhouse mirror
my social dysplasia
prey upon my divination
I ain't felt the same since my friend died
ever since it's just felt like the end times
now I just react like a enzyme with
skin like wind chimes words trapped in windpipe
I hate when things go right
who am I?
when I don't have someone to demonize or deify
memories crucified
never got to see you cry
dreams are sleep deprived
got to put my youth aside before i get euthanized
paralyzed by a pair of lies
domesticated by a plot device
there’s nowhere left for my truth to hide
caked on amnesia
caked on synesthesia
the organ grinder's monkey
survivor of the money
woman without a country
the cries are ignored
dragonflies my regalia
drown me in in paraphernalia
mirror double edged sword
gouge me until I see clearer
breath drawing nearer
gender funhouse mirror
my social dysplasia
flesh coat of pain
body leaking out the frame
burning in water drowning in flame
circling the drain
flesh coat of pain
body leaking out the frame
coursing through my veins
burning in water drowning flames
i am circling the drain with a flesh coat of pain
i will not die in vain
caked on amnesia
caked on synesthesia
the organ grinder's monkey
survivor of the money
woman without a country
caked on amnesia
caked on synesthesia
the organ grinder's monkey
survivor of the money
woman without a country
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